The Last Day of 2012

hey ! Great to know you 2012 !

All the laughter, sadness, joy and happiness.. 

Till then.. 

Happy New Year 2013

Making Memories

This morning,
I woke up and having this thought.. 

"it's good if all the memories that couldn't be captured by a camera could be transferred to a screen so that I can hit the replay button thousand times..."

Have u ever experienced all of ur good memories were lingered around ur thoughts together with a soothingly song played as a back up? well, I always do.... sometimes I wish  I can connect a USB cable to my mind bcoz it happened to produce an awesome video.. [something that any software couldn't do it! lol]

Yeah, I didn't realize that I was making memories tho, all I knew, 

I was having a good time... 

What about bad memories.. hurts.. nightmares... ? it just an ugly-truth of life and sometimes a beautiful-nightmares. We just need to face it. It is good if the memories were recorded too.. So that we can see how many people were hurt or even being embarrassed by us. As a self reflection I guess.. I said that coz i've been in the situation before.. sometimes, people were just too ignorance to look back how their friends feel. We keep silent for good and put a smile on our face for the sake of friendship. "Once you hurt someone, it will always be in the back of their mind, even if they still have a smile on their face.." We slipped our tongue. I did that too sometimes and regret it..

"kesalahan pada manusia harus diminta maafnya kepada manusia" 

#notakaki: tetibe teringat my essay during my foundation. The title was "The Truth or Silent For Good?"

Pissed Off !

I might be the youngest!

but m not a dumb a** !

kadang2, otak aku yg muda ni lagi matang and rasional dari korg !

don't u ever for one second get to thinking, u r always rite..

enough is enough la...

jgn lyn mcm aku ni budak 5 tahun yg x taw ape2...

I HAVE FEELINGS TOO!

mmg aku ni jenis x suka burst out dpn org or pd sape2 kalau marah...

but please.. m begging u... coz once aku burst out, u r going to remember it for the rest of ur life..

don't test my anger.. :)

maaf...




sorry readers.. x taw nk lepas kat mne..
ni je cara yg ade... :''(

P.H.O.T.O.graphy

Once upon a time

there was a boy

who have a very big fat dream...

Once he dreamt about being a Singer

Sometimes an Actor

Most of the time a Model

but Destiny brought him here

to be a Teacher...

whom gonna teach 

Singer

Actor

Model

#notakaki: -If one day i'm gonna have an album.. This is gonna be my concept.. 
                  -This pic was taken by my old-samsung-galaxy S

12.12.12

Haha.. cam ngada kan ? sume org nk update status psl special nye 12.12.12 nih.. 

kata ade luck la, itu la,,ini la.. ngarut je semua tuh.. huhu..

As for me.. let me list down what happened to me on 12.12.12 today.. ;-)

First, i went to hospital putrajaya this morning for Abah's appointment... then gi kat farmasi coz nk mintak ubat.. staff HPJ mmg ok..the way diorg treat customer mmg best.. baek, sopan n professional... bak kata pejol, maybe dkt ngan kementrian... haha... senang nk spot check ye dop ?

Then, reached home.. my sister beriye plak ngidam nk mkn durian crepe.. so,, dgn megahnye, gigih mencari sampai ke Tesco n Giant Nilai.. last2,, hapah ! x jmpe pon bende alah yg tgh trending skrg..seb baek da slalu mkn kt Midvalley..

Balik2 kne babysit budak 2 org nih plak.. haih... Yang beso tu Aqiel Haidar..adik diesi Arieq Haidar nih.. letih ! xpe.. demi menjadi bapak yg  berjaya suatu hari nnti.... #cewah.. besok "epydeday~!" si Arieq nih... genap 2 tahun... die ni kuat mkn... *firsttimeguneHDRshot

After switched on my phone yg mati sbb abez battery, dpt mesej ni plak from my sister.. yeay!! tali jam SEIKO dah elok.. tp.. rabak ! *abaikan.gambo.tu

Tadi lps maghrib, bile on9,, bergurau senda plak ngan fatehana, geng SBE 4 kat Sk. Simpang 5 Darat dlu.. die mmg gila, riuh plus ribut.. xde kje wat bnde nih

si gila 9gag tuh...

Lastly, i've found this teaser on Maria Elena Zarul n her fiance Asfirdaus... cool gile teaser diorg for pre-wedding nih... sama padan la diorg ni.. sorg ribut,,sorg cool je.. 

Selamat Menempuh Alam Perkahwinan ye korg...

huh.. what a day kan for 12.12.12

well,, at least I have something to look at on this date once 

I walk down the memory lane later...

#notakaki: besok birthday Arieq Haidar.. the day after tomorrow plak birthday Qhairatunnisa.. my sister ni mmg suke beranak time cuti skola je kan... n mlm ni jgk la Mira Alias confess something ! wow.. n Zah having her good time by liking gambo2 sebelum masihi dlu.. haha.. ok.. gtg..

Cinta Dari Syurga..

salam...
saya bru je tgk cerekarama "Cinta Dari Syurga" ptg ni td..bosan2 dok umah kan.. hehe..
i would say this is one of the best piece sepanjang hayat cerekarama wujud kat tv3.. bkn ape.. selama ni cite yg berunsurkan islamik semua mcm x mendlm sgt.. sume cite pasal pompuan baik teraniya la, penghijrahan la..tp cite ni, deep gile.. jelas intelektual islamik nye.. pandai la researcher die buat research.. 

rasanye suami isteri yang da kawen, patut tgk cite mcm ni sebagai panduan.. tgk mcm mane sehebat mane pon agama diorg, godaan syaitan tuh.. mcm mane harungi kehidupan tanpa kurniaan zuriat, mcm mane perasaan bermadu,, macam mne cara berlaku adil,, dan mcm mne hebatnye dugaan Allah.. pergh... tp respect la watak Fauziah Gaos dlm cite tu.. isteri yg tenang dan bnyk muhasabah diri.. watak sampingan dalam cite tu pon sgt2 best dgn pandangan ilmiah diorg.. :)

speaking of her..
she resembled somebody that i used to know.. :')
muke sebijik.. so mase tgk cite tu,, fefeeling la.. haha.. well,, 
moving on doesn't mean letting go.. it just the missing pieces were still left inside.. but i will survive.. rindu tu normal la.. #ceh

btw, good news.. finally, i've met my sister's new boyfriend.. org Kelantan katanya.. borak2 ngan die td.. ok la. not bad.. ade kerja, rupe, agama... xde la yg mcm sebelum ni.. haha.. #sorrySis.. haha.. i'll pray the best for u yup.. harap2 yg ni kekal la sampai ke jinjang pelamin.. walaupon jaoh nk ngantor nnti.. tp xpe.. usia tu da sesuai da bg seorang pompuan.. :P

n for those yg x smpt tgk kat tv3 mase tu,, bley tgk usya link kat bawah ni.. x perlu donlod.. bley tgk online je.. maybe pandangan kite x sama.. but for me, it is a good piece..

Cinta Dari Syurga

#notakaki: lately ni asyik mimpi pelik2 je.. slame kat kolej,,jarang nk mimpi2 ni.. mostly mimpi sedih la.. dah dua kali two ears full of tears nih... haih.. syaitan,,plis maen jaoh2 ey.. shuuh2...

J O H O

Currently, this is my desktop wallpaper...

I don't know why but I think this picture is kinda cool..

n it represent JOHO

my lovely state.. hehehe

"cenggini la baru stail doe !"

"borak toksah kencang, bio gambo ni yang sembang"

hehe.. we know if you are a true Johorean..

actually, kalau ikutkan, org joho ni mmg ckp kaso ckt.. 

tp bkn kaso sebenonye. bahasa same je.. cume struktur ayt tu disusun je pelik ckt..

x dpt nk recall plak contoh ayat for now.. nnti dah teringt,, saya edit balik ey? hehe..

bnyk org kate, org joho ni kebanyakannye klako..mungkin la.. haha.. *punchface

n pade sape2 yg agak2 nk tempah baju yg stail lagi smart nih, boley pegi link ni...

JOHO with <3 a="a">

baju JOHO ni mmg limited ckt.. hehe

It's just another dream.

salam.
I woke up this morning around 6.15 a.m because i was having a bad dream. I couldn't sleep after that. U know, termenung mcm dlm drama tv tu...Well, it doesn't seem like a nightmare to me at least. What happened was, I had a fight with one of my friends where I confronted what that person had missed out throughout the friendship.

well,, I wish that I have that kind of courage where Allah give me strength to speak out things that have been lingering my mind that querulously inside. I was hoping that this dream would be reality. I have this feeling where de-javu is certainly gonna take place. It just the matter of time where the claymore is waiting to be stepped on!

But at the same time, it vexes me out where quarrel is not really my thing..  I hate when it turns out that people will not talk to each other after a confrontation where the "awkward moments" will definitely happen.. And i do concern about people feeling.. too much.. as I dun want to see anybody get hurts or sad.. so, I rather keep the unsatisfactory feelings aside so that nothing will happen.. like what me and my classmate Rastiara Hanifati said, "kite telan je la,, kite kan geng Cancer yg hebat! lol".. 

i'm a dreamer

#notakaki: i've come across this quote saying "Moving on? Yes. Letting go? No." it is definitely two different things.. we can moved on on certain things.. but not letting it go as it will remain as memories.. 

Vendetta .

u tell me..

how am i going to stay with a person

while i'm still holding a vendetta...

i can't stand being fake anymore.. 

hoping for a cure..

only u can make the cure...

if not,, things won't be change 

n 

i'll eat it up pieces by pieces 

so that u'll notice one day.

#notakaki: helping my sister to mark SPM paper.. need to submit it by tomorrow...

i just love metaphor..

this guy is just good in giving words !

how do you deal with it when

"how many were they before me?"

come across a conversation?

he portrayed it good..

it just deep..

girls will definitely fall for guy like this.. :)
n i love her hair.. ;-)

second thought...

‎

i've come across this quotes.. baek punye perumpamaan... something to ponder rite.. ;-)

"..de 400 eko lembu jalan2.. bile tgh seronok2 jenjalan, pastu seko tergolek..y len2 cumer mmp perati n gelak je..ade jugak yang buat x taw n truskan bejalan.. lembu yg kne tinggal tu pon moral down..x sangka kwn2 die mcm tu.. but tibe2 dtg seko kerbau dtg tlg angkat lembu y tertumus tnh td..lalu, c lembu pon gembire last2 de gak haiwan y mo tlg angkat dier slaen drpd manusia y cumer angkat dier time nk g sembelih.. tp, x lama lps da sonok2,,da dpt ramai membe2 baru yg laen, si lembu ni lupekan kerbau yg pernah tlg die dlu.. time kaseh, sorry pon da xde nk sebot.. kerbau pon sentap dan biar mase je yg tntukan utk die tertumus blk..kali ni nk tgk,,sape yg nk tlg die plak..
moral of the story: kawan itu dtg dlm pelbagai bentuk..x kire dier hodoh, itam, layut, busuk, lembut, keras, padat, ganas, tinggi, pendek dan sbg nyer, dier still kawan kiter..igt la jasa dorg y penah dorg wt dulu.. appreciate those who cares before they leave you..."

Pabila Coti!

haha !

ni la kje bile cuti...

try new things..

dua recording berasingan..

mixed with a software called

Mixcraft 3 !

saje bosan2.. hehe

Sebiji Gula Getah..

Olo~

today i wanna tell a story that happened to me last weekend.. 

sabtu lepas aisy went to KL to settle some business.. dipendekkan cerita, my sister drop me at the ERL Salak Tinggi Station... then, while i was waiting for the train to come, ade sorg mamat ni... he was on phone and suddenly come near me.. he looked kinda lost and suddenly he gave me his phone and ask me to talk to the people on hold. Actually, dia ni foreigner from China.. At first, die ckp cina kat aisy and ape lagi, i gave him kening Ziana Zain la.. beliakkan cikit mata sebab x paham langsung die ckp ape.. he asked,

He: Are you Chinese ?

Me: No, I'm not.. I'm Malay.

He: Are you Malay? 

Me: duhh~ no lah, i'm Indian what! 

He: India?

Me: haiya ! I am Malay la! Hayoh !

that was how the ice broke! hayoh.. x phm joke, x phm bahasa, susah meyh mau idup !

rupe-rupenye dia mmg dari China n speak NO ENGLISH ! (da penah kene skali masa ICAF dlu dgn deligates china)... tapi the best part nye,, die tnye,, Muslim? and i said yes ! die trus bagi salam and aisy jwb wslm.. time tu mmg "kriiik...kriiiik...kriiiik...." akaawkward bak kata Fat Amy ! sbbnye x sangka die Muslim from China... die ni sebenarnye org Kazakhstan tapi lahir kat China n besar kat sana... die dtg Malaysia ni nk jumpe member die kat KL sentral for i-dunno-what-reason... 

kesahnye,, kitorg da macam ayam ngan itik da mase tu.. kebetulan die nk gi KL sentral n i'm heading to the same station, i decided to help him... at that moment, i was thinking.. macam mane nk berckp ngan die nih ? sepatah haram langsung x phm..aisy x phm die,,die x phm aisy.. ok! itu masalah! so, masa dlm train tu, die follow aisy n sit next to me bcoz die takut terpisah n sesat.... dlm train tu,, aisy pon dudok la ngadap my Samsung S1.. suddenly dtg 1 idea bernas.. baru teringat yg ERL ade wifi YES.. so,, terus connect and bukak google translator.. mase tu,, try la type "can you understand this?" = "你能理解吗？" ... tetibe die ketawa n sengih2 bercampur eksaited ! sbb nye,, die PAHAM ! haha... at last ! mase tu trus fefeeling man-of-the-day sbb dpt solve kan prob.... hehe.. ape lagi.. bertubi-tubi soalan aisy tnye die... tp mostly soalan yang jawapannye Yes or No je la sbb die x taw cmne nk reply in English.. ade skali tu,,die mengeluh dlm bhasa cina sbb kecewa ngan diri sndri sbb x reti ckp English.. BOLEYH? tetibe tepaham ape die ckp... ahhaa..  mase tu agak bergelak ketawa jgk la dlm train sbb situation mase tu mcm awkward+klako... bile da sampai KL sentral tu,, 1 lg problem... kedit die da abez n die bg duet soh topapkan... pulak ! nk godam fon die yg bhasa cina tu plak sbb nk tgk own number... then.. tetibe dtg idea bernas.. lagi skali rasa mcm bijak n savior-of-the-day.. aisy terus bwk die gi booth YES internet coz yg jaga tu mamat cina... aisy cite what happened to the person at the booth and soh die communicate... seb baek bahasa diorg sama... haih..  then cina booth tu kata kat aisy.. "u ni bagus la even x phm cina punya bahasa, tp still mau tolong dia.. bnyk bagus  la u" i returned a big smile to him.... lps da tepon member die tu,, aisy trus bwk die kat bwh billboard yg gedabak gajah besarnye so that kwn die bley nmpk die... lps da jejak kasih tgh2 sentral tu,, i decided to beransur... then die kata.. die xde ape to repay my kindness... n i said no need coz kebetulan kan... then die hulur sebijik gula getah dari....well,,  i wouldn't accept if he is not muslim.. hehe... he thank me a lot... dan aisy pon mengorak langkah...

sebenarnye ape yg di katakan kat sini,,, aisy sanggup tolong die ni sbb die sedara sesama Islam aisy.. kita dituntut utk berbuat baek pd semua org dan mmbantu org yg dlm kesusahan.. maybe hari ni hari die.. who knows,, satu hari nnti it happens to me ? insyaAllah it will go the same.. semuanye bermula bila dia bagi Salam and bgtau yg nama die Abdullah.. trus terbukak pintu aty ni nk tolong die.. sbb tu masa cina kat booth tu tnye knpa sanggup tolong die pdhal die from China? sbb tu la aisy senyum je kat cina tu without saying any words.. its better not to say rite.. :)

notakaki: he really thought that i am a chinese.. coz he said my face looks like one of his friends there in China name Talha... 

Falling.

i never felt this way before.
i'm having the hardship of my life now.
everything is just not right.
it comes on the WRONG time.
never feels like crying before bed
hoping for a new day to be rainbow.
i am not ok.
i am a human
i have feelings
appreciate
me...
while i'm still breathing...



this is the note before a suicide is committed..

bye mates~

finally !!

its freedom...

I officially finished my 2nd year of degree today... can't wait for next semester coz i'll be going for practicum... excited yet a bit nervous.. please be kind to me kid ! if not.. we'll see how.. haha..
apart from that,, i think, i only score on my minor paper as it was the easiest paper among the others.. yg laen,,sumpah mcm haram.. x sabar nk tgk adik2 merana blaja bnde2 tuh.. hahaha.. i kluar awal kot.. sejam stgh dah siap even time allocated was 2 and 1/2 hours... intelligent sgt kan kuar awal.. but still,, i was the second last person who left the room while hidayah was still answering the essay.. yang laen,, sejam da kuar..
personally, i felt that BM is way too susah for me.. not that i lupe daratan or something.. it just,, i don't know.. can it be considered as the interference of our mother tongue since my first language is not BM BAKU~ my 1st mother tongue is Malay Johor... haha... but still..  mmg kompem banyak salah tatabahasa masa buat essay Seni td coz banyak Formal Malay words yg eden dok taw... but insyaallah,,i think i'll score..

second thing.. my beloved seniors,, PISMP cohort 4 KS are going to leave us like forever kot.. i'm gonna miss them.. We r going to miss them.. diorg mmg serious senior yg paling sporting,, havoc n boley masuk ngan adik2 mcm kitorg.. especially in KESENI group,, Kak tikah n ijat.. these two means a lot in my life in IPBA.. they help me a lot,, clean the air,,  and freshen up our life in IPBA.. i think ,, not only me yang akan terasa akan pemergian diorg.. but all of us.... after this,, i'm not sure how IPBA is going to turn up to... hoping for a good thing...gonna miss their laughter, tears, n DRAMAS !

this is the end of the week of our sem... the next two days,, our almost 2 month holiday is going to start.. i'm gonna miss all of my friends since i don't have many friends back in kampung... literally.. coz most of them cuti x sama.. they are university students.. cuti laen2... i ikut cuti skolah sajor ! babai KESENIANS ! see u guys next sem.. n all my PISMP mates too.. 

to my rumates.. please enjoy urself for another couple days here in IPBA. this will be our last time staying together as Three's Stooges.. next semester,, its gonna be Fantastic Four... *in your dream ! i'm sure its not gonna be the same next sem.. u know y.. oh how i miss that we can bahan2 like now.. so,,i wanna say sorry to both of u if i ever had hurt ur feelings or terkasar bahasa,,tergurau mana x kena.. mintak halal atas segalanya.. stay safe and sound n do keep in touch.. jgn nk kegna sgt! insyaallah next sem jumpa lagi... i'm gonna miss u guys.. come back in one piece oke.. not broken into pieces oke.. anything,, kite skype sajor.. itupon if i have internet connection.. kalau nk jalan2,,roger la,, kite bkn jaoh pon...

pada yg nak kawen tu,,slamat pengantin baru... moga kekal ke anak cucu hendaknya... bahagia disamping org tersyg.. kalau ade kelapangan, insyaallah sampai la majlisnye.. :)



#notakaki: i'm still waiting for u to open up stories that u never told me.. :) i'm gonna wait.. i just wanna hear it from urself.. i'm not blind yet a deaf.. just wanna hear it from u.. :) dun worry.. u used to tell stories to me and it remains untold.. :)

It Feels Good When You Around.

`firstly, that was only a random picture that i grabbed from my Tumblr...

sebenarnye, sekarang tengah musim exam where i've doomed 3 of my papers. susah tahap mcm jwb add math.. mohon jgn anyone tnye Aisy about my result later.. my next paper is going be on How to Teach Grammar in primary schools.. duh.. bknnye test mcm "what is noun?" "what is determiners?".. it is more than that... nvm.. tgk je lah cmne besok since paper writing arytuh mcm !@#$%^&*!!

november sgt bermakna pada aisy since a lot of things happening in this month.. 

2nd november is my sister's birthday.. well, tu xde la significant sgt kan.. HAHA !

but ianya jadi tragedi sehari selepas tu bcoz 3rd November ialah hari dimana Arwah Along Eizwan kami tinggalkan kami selama-lamanya..

Semalam genap 12 tahun die pergi.. i was 9 years old back then.. total blurr on what just happened on that day.. ingat lagi mase tu Aisy kat umah makcik bile dpt taw berita tuh.. tu pon mak call suruh blk umah.. mase tu lepas semayang jumaat.... then bila blk rumah tu,, rumah mmg nampak gloomy giler n hujan masa tu mcm iringi tangisan mak.. bile sampai tu, semua org dok termenung n x bercakap ape.. bile aisy gi dapur n jumpa mak,, mak ckp along dah xde.. trus mak pegang n peluk aisy... die ckp, "lps ni jgn naik moto lagi ye"... aisy diam seribu bahasa je masa tu.. tp masa tu mak x nangis pon..cuma muka dia nampak sgt sedih.. masa tu,, cuba cari abah sbb nk tgk macam mane penerimaan die.. i couldn't find him.. masa tu semua org xnk bercakap ape2.. a 9 years old kid hanya mampu tgk je semua benda ni berlaku.. masa tu mak ngan ude bentang tilam and guna cadar putih kat ruang tamu sbb menunggu ketibaan jenazah.. so,, i felt asleep and bila bangun je pukol 2 pagi masa tu,, ramai org dah kat ruang tamu n nmpk sekujur tubuh terbaring atas tilam n sume org sibuk baca yassin masa tu.. makcik suruh basuh muka n pergi salam n cium along.. tp i was too scared and trembling teruk punya.. so, pergi kat mak n ckp xnk gi ruang tamu sbb takot.. mak suruh pergi smayang isya' dlu mase tuh bia x takut lepas tuh... then, bile da smayang tuh,, pakcik panggil n ckp kat aisy, along awak dah xde.. skrg, awak lah satu-satunye laki dlm keluarga..

air mata terus berjurai masa tu.. lepas tu,, trus aisy pergi ruang tamu n bawak yassin utk baca kat along. since masa tu still takot lagi,, aisy duduk kat penjuru n baca..

at that time baru nampak abah. die duduk tertunduk sebelah along sambil menangis. die ude ckp abah hampir rebah masa arwah sampai kat pintu rumah. lps tu die trus duduk sebelah along and x bergerak pergi makan or minum pon.. sampai mak pon sebak tgk abah mcm tu..tibe2 masa tu ude ajak duduk dekat kepala along bia rapat dgn along.. mase tu ade org dtg nk tgk arwah,, bila dia bukak kain tu, terus nampak muka along pucat.. masa tu tergamam n trus terimas semua kenangan dgn along yg kejap je dpt aisy rasakan.. 

masa lepas semayangkan along, sebelum nk kebumikan, kami semua cium dahi dan pipi along. aisy sgt2 takut masa tu.. then bile da sentuh dahi dia.. terus rasa sgt sebak dan sedih. air mata terus mengalir laju je n teresak-esak... sbb baru rasa yg along akan pergi selama-lamanya.. ini rupanya yg dikatakan kematian dan perpisahan antara dunia dan akhirat. bila turn mak, mak sgt tenang walaupon mata die bergenang. sambil tu mak sempat bisik kat telinga along supaya along tenang kat sana.. "mak redha along pergi'.. lepas mak bisik tu, aisy nampak air mata mengalir dari mata along dan mak lap air mata along yang mengalir tu..bile turn abah, abah menggigil dan x terdaya nak bgn lps cium along. sebak sangat2 bila tgk abah macam tu.. seperti hilang segala kekuatan die.. masa tu aisy x berhenti menangis sampai la selamat dikebumikan.. lepas jenazah bertolak ke kubur, barulah berjurai mata mak, sbb itulah kali terakhir akan berada dirumah ni.. 

seminggu lepas tu, rumah sunyi je sbb semua org x ckp bnyk.. aisy tnye mak masa tu,,kenapa mak x nangis masa along meninggal ? mak peluk aisy n ckp, mak xnk along nmpk mak sedih macam mak menyesal atas kematian die.. mak nak die pergi dengan tenang n mak redha utk dia menghadap Ilahi... 

lepas daripada tu, bila kat skolah,, org tnye2,, aisy sedih sgt.. sampai x sanggup nk jwb bile ckgu tnya pasal along.. tahun 2000 was my silent year..

that was my first kematian dalam keluarga.. pesanan aisy,, sayangilah adik beradik kita.. hari ni mungkin dia ada,, besok mungkin dia hilang selama-lamanya.. 

sebab tu aisy cemburu dgn org yg ade abang or adik beradik laki.. sbb aisy sempat merasa sekejap je.. that is y i love my boy friends much sebab that's the only way aisy boley rasa that along is around and ada org yg care kat aisy, ade org nasihatkan aisy... 

change the name Ariq with Eizwan

n adik to abg.

reflection~

assalamualaikum n hye...

it's been a while since i wrote my last post...

actually i have a lot to tell... but i love to share story verbally bcoz it is more expressive...

i'm currently listening to the instrumental of Pendam by Shahir.

the same mood is happening to me...

i don't know.. maybe i think too much...

lately, i don't really know what is happening to me..

i'm a tabah person but i dun noe y did i let myself down, i let me be disappointed,, i let the sadness took over myself...

i tried to hide.. but seems like good friends can see it.. 

jerawat pon banyak naek...

stress ? maybe...

regarding the inspiring quotation above...

lot of things happened.. i just need my second chance to leave whatever unnecessary things and looking forward for something better ahead... 

n now, i just need to sleep to neutralize my feelings and left it all behind n have a good-fresh-new tomorrow... 

notakaki: maafkan hamba ini andai ada pernah mengguris atau mencalar hati sesiapa.. sesungguhnya aku insan yang lemah.. 

Salam Ramadhan

International Children's Art Festival - Baao Children's Choir Philippines 

salam n hye..
happy fasting to all muslims !
even though it is coming to the end but still... its not late to wish rite..

Bulan puasa mcm ni,, i've done a lot of unpleasant things to my life.. 
firstly, truancy... sounds harsh but ya,, i did it.. x student la kan kalau x buat.. haha.. but then again,, i feel bad about it. senang cite,, bulan puasa ni la paling bnyk i skip class (notforthewholedayoke!)... 

besides,, i lost few pounds which org kata Aisy nampak cengkung and sakit. i dunno.. maybe.. bnyk sentap ngan member kot. haha.. boley x? nvm.. people make mistakes but awas ye,, not for twice or trice.. haha.. quite sad coz i've lost about 8 kilos n my waist dropped from 31 to 29... haih... da mcm anorexia da.. hehe.. tp xpe.. raya is coming.. time tu mmg wa nak pulun abez bak ang ! makan tara hengat punye la! haha.. topap balik ruang2 kosong kat badan nih..

other info:
- really have fun iftar with KESENI family.. susah nk gathered ramai2 camtu even still ade yg x dpt join...miss all of them..
- going for SBE this coming Monday at tangkak,Ledang, JOHO (ek?) haha.. quite worried coz we will only go to school for 3 days coz khamis n jumaat is holiday...one more thing dat i'm afraid is that, hopefully, peristiwa salah paham during my 1st SBE x berulang lagi.. sgt sdey time tuh... haih.. kemon la.. let bygone be bygone..
- now bz with dance practice for MERDEKA show with Shazlan's Dancer on 31st August.. 
- This year raya kat Pekan, Pahang which i'm not quite likey ! better Segamat lagi.. kan.. 
- becoming low self-confidence, and getting upset often..
- struggling for another 2 more years as a teacher-to-be.. 



H.A.P.P.Y..R.A.M.A.D.H.A.N yoll !

me.MYSELF.i

 its me.

only me.

a mysterious guy?

no.

secretive?

depends.

refer to the caption of my blog.

i'm describable. 

u never care, u never know

u never ask, i'll never tell

judge me, please no~

Happy Birthday !

credit to Valentine Edwin Chabo

yes, im officially 21..

this year's celebration was quite dull coz i'm having flu n fever.

plus, no more Black Forest Cheese, Chocolates, Perfume, Teddy, Shirts, Pants n so on like previously..

nvm. present is just a present..

what is important now i thank Allah coz giving me chance to live for another year.. 

this time around, my birthday was been celebrated during our BIG camp in cameron highland.. 

so, i got a bouquet of flower from the headmistress of the SJK(C) Tanah Rata.. baek hati guru besar tuh.. 

Thanx to Aril n Najad coz share bagi hadiah scarf tu (even kl panas) hehe...kalau kite ingt org tu,, insyaallah org tu ingt kita.. itulah adat berkawan.. :) 

n thanx gak kat to all my friends sebab nyanyi lagu burfday time kat cameron tuh.. :)

#notakaki: *selamat menyambut ramadhan

                 *da kne tukar IC

                 *da bley masuk club

I Am Single

Being single is a choice, 

some say it's to avoid heartbreaks, 

but some choose to be single because they're still in love with someone else.

#truestory

Lets Live Life Lively...

hey.. its beginning of ma new semester...
x sampai sebulan lagi,, many things happen.. 
happy,sad,joy,bad, flourish, sick.... smile..


Yunaliszarai said,, "di setiap gambar ada lagu"... well,, these pictures will do the job of telling my stories..

Muzikal Hari Guru

Birthday Dr.Ghazali at The Sphere Bangsar

Hiking at Gunung Bukit Buah Genting Highland

K.O.T 2012 CHAMPION for 3 Times 

Champion for Treasure Hunt English Week

Closing Ceremony's Gorgeous Zombies for English Week (thriller wif lecturer) 

Citrawarna 1 Malaysia 2012 Opening Muzikal Team at Merdeka Square KL

Show Inang Cina wif Tari 9 at Himpunan Sejuta Belia under GPMS

Champion Dance Competition for International Dance Day (Dandut)

KAGUM National Level and Overall Champion (BSMM)

Flashmob in IPBA for Hari Guru Celebration wif KESENI

Generasi Y Stand As One Carnival. Requested from the JKKN booth for group singing

Graduation Choir at Dewan Sri Siantan Putrajaya

I love what I am doing..

These pictures have different2 stories... well,, maybe for the next post,, i'll do some supporting details on the selected picture... 

#notakaki: terkilan x dpt gi IPIS for volleyball.. i assume bcoz i didn't attend the adhoc meeting at 11p.m for the selection purposes.. ntah lah.. da la siap dpt perli lg tuh.. saba2... xpelah.. xde rezki kot... chill.. :)

Need Partner

i went to clinic just now..
alone. drive. mabuk.
sampai kat clinic td rasa nk collapse je.
then check temperature..
38.8 degree Celsius..
panas dalam.
then kne amek darah...for the first time in my life.
cuak+cool je,, sbb pening lg seksa dari amek darah
sbb ensem #puiii xpyh que utk amek darah.
then doc said maybe food poisoning + high fever.
mengucap.
dpt ubat..
antibiotik for 5 days.
paracetamol
diarrhea
gastric
vomiting
rehydration salt


then nk blk td,, i was thinking..
how am i going to drive back with my unstable condition ??
doa n tawakal je la x excident td..
yeah,, i cannot live alone.. at least one person to be on my side..
at least ade org nk drive,,or kalau x bley drive pon,,can call anybody to usung aisy ke klinik.
ade org tolong masakkan bubur or anything that can be eaten.


T_T


my mom call every hour to make sure that i'm okay staying alone with high fever..
i wish she could be on my side every moment.. to please me n said "it's gonna be fine" 
it does make me stronger. 




#notakaki: hopefully i can recover before perlis.. need to study all the ikatan thing... how? fenin nih..haih.

fever !

feverfeverfeverfeverfeverfever

kepala rasa nk meletop..

fenin..

hopefully i'll heal before off to perlis..

if not..

hell not M gonna perform well... 

i think bcoz pnat sgt kot..

Citrawarna-HariBeliaPutrajaya-Sepang-Segamat-JB-Segamat-Sepang-KL

n Perlis is queuing up..~

pray hard..

Happy Birthday !

hey you ! adikku-si-tembam-lagi-lemak-merdu-suaranya...

happy birthday!

sweet 20 !

gud luck in KAGUM monodrama !

stay healthy !

stay put !

be strong for whatever that comes !

x smpt bagi hadiah,,

bagi ni je.. ok la kan... hehe

Hello, Goodbye

poor little kid..

hoping that a 'hello' could change everything..

yes.. it change.. almost everything..

but in different way.. 

it made him feel sad & bad..

rather than sexy & happy..

nvm.

"a goodbye is a start of a new hello"

#notakaki: total sadness now.. lost all my senses... hope i can get through..

random

"sometimes fates throws two lovers together

just to rip them apart"

A story of a Blender

sad rite ?
this is the preetyugly of a friendship.

my view...

new friends appear (blender)
all surrounded it
neglecting the old friend toaster (bkn syahmi lolx)
enjoying moment with new friend..
totally ignored the old friend..
being blended till pulverized 
totally varnished from the old friend.
poor little toaster..
blender is not the one to be blamed..
it just... 
the fruits need to do a little bit of thinking.. 




#notakaki: jgn sesekali sentapkan aty kwn2 kite yg lame kwn ngan kite sbb dpt kwn baru... :)

hate ~

sorry.
it was a tiring day.
i need to run everywhere ALONE !
yes.. ALONE !

sorry to say..
no one understand me!
jgn harap aku nk gi umah kaw lagi..
mmg aku x blk la kalau takat blk umah kaw nk gado je!
rosak mood exam...