i've come across this quotes.. baek punye perumpamaan... something to ponder rite.. ;-) "..de 400 eko lembu jalan2.. bile tgh seronok2 jenjalan, pastu seko tergolek..y len2 cumer mmp perati n gelak je..ade jugak yang buat x taw n truskan bejalan.. lembu yg kne tinggal tu pon moral down..x sangka kwn2 die mcm tu.. but tibe2 dtg seko kerbau dtg tlg angkat lembu y tertumus tnh td..lalu, c lembu pon gembire last2 de gak haiwan y mo tlg angkat dier slaen drpd manusia y cumer angkat dier time nk g sembelih.. tp, x lama lps da sonok2,,da dpt ramai membe2 baru yg laen, si lembu ni lupekan kerbau yg pernah tlg die dlu.. time kaseh, sorry pon da xde nk sebot.. kerbau pon sentap dan biar mase je yg tntukan utk die tertumus blk..kali ni nk tgk,,sape yg nk tlg die plak.. moral of the story: kawan itu dtg dlm pelbagai bentuk..x kire dier hodoh, itam, layut, busuk, lembut, keras, padat, ganas, tinggi, pendek dan sbg nyer, dier still kawan kiter..igt la jasa dorg y penah dorg wt dulu.. appreciate those who cares before they leave you..."
today i wanna tell a story that happened to me last weekend..
sabtu lepas aisy went to KL to settle some business.. dipendekkan cerita, my sister drop me at the ERL Salak Tinggi Station... then, while i was waiting for the train to come, ade sorg mamat ni... he was on phone and suddenly come near me.. he looked kinda lost and suddenly he gave me his phone and ask me to talk to the people on hold. Actually, dia ni foreigner from China.. At first, die ckp cina kat aisy and ape lagi, i gave him kening Ziana Zain la.. beliakkan cikit mata sebab x paham langsung die ckp ape.. he asked,
He: Are you Chinese ?
Me: No, I'm not.. I'm Malay.
He: Are you Malay?
Me: duhh~ no lah, i'm Indian what!
He: India?
Me: haiya ! I am Malay la! Hayoh !
that was how the ice broke! hayoh.. x phm joke, x phm bahasa, susah meyh mau idup !
rupe-rupenye dia mmg dari China n speak NO ENGLISH ! (da penah kene skali masa ICAF dlu dgn deligates china)... tapi the best part nye,, die tnye,, Muslim? and i said yes ! die trus bagi salam and aisy jwb wslm.. time tu mmg "kriiik...kriiiik...kriiiik...." akaawkward bak kata Fat Amy ! sbbnye x sangka die Muslim from China... die ni sebenarnye org Kazakhstan tapi lahir kat China n besar kat sana... die dtg Malaysia ni nk jumpe member die kat KL sentral for i-dunno-what-reason...
kesahnye,, kitorg da macam ayam ngan itik da mase tu.. kebetulan die nk gi KL sentral n i'm heading to the same station, i decided to help him... at that moment, i was thinking.. macam mane nk berckp ngan die nih ? sepatah haram langsung x phm..aisy x phm die,,die x phm aisy.. ok! itu masalah! so, masa dlm train tu, die follow aisy n sit next to me bcoz die takut terpisah n sesat.... dlm train tu,, aisy pon dudok la ngadap my Samsung S1.. suddenly dtg 1 idea bernas.. baru teringat yg ERL ade wifi YES.. so,, terus connect and bukak google translator.. mase tu,, try la type "can you understand this?" = "你能理解吗？" ... tetibe die ketawa n sengih2 bercampur eksaited ! sbb nye,, die PAHAM ! haha... at last ! mase tu trus fefeeling man-of-the-day sbb dpt solve kan prob.... hehe.. ape lagi.. bertubi-tubi soalan aisy tnye die... tp mostly soalan yang jawapannye Yes or No je la sbb die x taw cmne nk reply in English.. ade skali tu,,die mengeluh dlm bhasa cina sbb kecewa ngan diri sndri sbb x reti ckp English.. BOLEYH? tetibe tepaham ape die ckp... ahhaa.. mase tu agak bergelak ketawa jgk la dlm train sbb situation mase tu mcm awkward+klako... bile da sampai KL sentral tu,, 1 lg problem... kedit die da abez n die bg duet soh topapkan... pulak ! nk godam fon die yg bhasa cina tu plak sbb nk tgk own number... then.. tetibe dtg idea bernas.. lagi skali rasa mcm bijak n savior-of-the-day.. aisy terus bwk die gi booth YES internet coz yg jaga tu mamat cina... aisy cite what happened to the person at the booth and soh die communicate... seb baek bahasa diorg sama... haih.. then cina booth tu kata kat aisy.. "u ni bagus la even x phm cina punya bahasa, tp still mau tolong dia.. bnyk bagus la u" i returned a big smile to him.... lps da tepon member die tu,, aisy trus bwk die kat bwh billboard yg gedabak gajah besarnye so that kwn die bley nmpk die... lps da jejak kasih tgh2 sentral tu,, i decided to beransur... then die kata.. die xde ape to repay my kindness... n i said no need coz kebetulan kan... then die hulur sebijik gula getah dari....well,, i wouldn't accept if he is not muslim.. hehe... he thank me a lot... dan aisy pon mengorak langkah...
sebenarnye ape yg di katakan kat sini,,, aisy sanggup tolong die ni sbb die sedara sesama Islam aisy.. kita dituntut utk berbuat baek pd semua org dan mmbantu org yg dlm kesusahan.. maybe hari ni hari die.. who knows,, satu hari nnti it happens to me ? insyaAllah it will go the same.. semuanye bermula bila dia bagi Salam and bgtau yg nama die Abdullah.. trus terbukak pintu aty ni nk tolong die.. sbb tu masa cina kat booth tu tnye knpa sanggup tolong die pdhal die from China? sbb tu la aisy senyum je kat cina tu without saying any words.. its better not to say rite.. :)
notakaki: he really thought that i am a chinese.. coz he said my face looks like one of his friends there in China name Talha...
i never felt this way before.
i'm having the hardship of my life now.
everything is just not right.
it comes on the WRONG time.
never feels like crying before bed
hoping for a new day to be rainbow.
i am not ok.
i am a human
i have feelings
appreciate
me...
while i'm still breathing...
I officially finished my 2nd year of degree today... can't wait for next semester coz i'll be going for practicum... excited yet a bit nervous.. please be kind to me kid ! if not.. we'll see how.. haha.. apart from that,, i think, i only score on my minor paper as it was the easiest paper among the others.. yg laen,,sumpah mcm haram.. x sabar nk tgk adik2 merana blaja bnde2 tuh.. hahaha.. i kluar awal kot.. sejam stgh dah siap even time allocated was 2 and 1/2 hours... intelligent sgt kan kuar awal.. but still,, i was the second last person who left the room while hidayah was still answering the essay.. yang laen,, sejam da kuar.. personally, i felt that BM is way too susah for me.. not that i lupe daratan or something.. it just,, i don't know.. can it be considered as the interference of our mother tongue since my first language is not BM BAKU~ my 1st mother tongue is Malay Johor... haha... but still.. mmg kompem banyak salah tatabahasa masa buat essay Seni td coz banyak Formal Malay words yg eden dok taw... but insyaallah,,i think i'll score.. second thing.. my beloved seniors,, PISMP cohort 4 KS are going to leave us like forever kot.. i'm gonna miss them.. We r going to miss them.. diorg mmg serious senior yg paling sporting,, havoc n boley masuk ngan adik2 mcm kitorg.. especially in KESENI group,, Kak tikah n ijat.. these two means a lot in my life in IPBA.. they help me a lot,, clean the air,, and freshen up our life in IPBA.. i think ,, not only me yang akan terasa akan pemergian diorg.. but all of us.... after this,, i'm not sure how IPBA is going to turn up to... hoping for a good thing...gonna miss their laughter, tears, n DRAMAS ! this is the end of the week of our sem... the next two days,, our almost 2 month holiday is going to start.. i'm gonna miss all of my friends since i don't have many friends back in kampung... literally.. coz most of them cuti x sama.. they are university students.. cuti laen2... i ikut cuti skolah sajor ! babai KESENIANS ! see u guys next sem.. n all my PISMP mates too.. to my rumates.. please enjoy urself for another couple days here in IPBA. this will be our last time staying together as Three's Stooges.. next semester,, its gonna be Fantastic Four... *in your dream ! i'm sure its not gonna be the same next sem.. u know y.. oh how i miss that we can bahan2 like now.. so,,i wanna say sorry to both of u if i ever had hurt ur feelings or terkasar bahasa,,tergurau mana x kena.. mintak halal atas segalanya.. stay safe and sound n do keep in touch.. jgn nk kegna sgt! insyaallah next sem jumpa lagi... i'm gonna miss u guys.. come back in one piece oke.. not broken into pieces oke.. anything,, kite skype sajor.. itupon if i have internet connection.. kalau nk jalan2,,roger la,, kite bkn jaoh pon... pada yg nak kawen tu,,slamat pengantin baru... moga kekal ke anak cucu hendaknya... bahagia disamping org tersyg.. kalau ade kelapangan, insyaallah sampai la majlisnye.. :) #notakaki: i'm still waiting for u to open up stories that u never told me.. :) i'm gonna wait.. i just wanna hear it from urself.. i'm not blind yet a deaf.. just wanna hear it from u.. :) dun worry.. u used to tell stories to me and it remains untold.. :)
`firstly, that was only a random picture that i grabbed from my Tumblr...
sebenarnye, sekarang tengah musim exam where i've doomed 3 of my papers. susah tahap mcm jwb add math.. mohon jgn anyone tnye Aisy about my result later.. my next paper is going be on How to Teach Grammar in primary schools.. duh.. bknnye test mcm "what is noun?" "what is determiners?".. it is more than that... nvm.. tgk je lah cmne besok since paper writing arytuh mcm !@#$%^&*!!
november sgt bermakna pada aisy since a lot of things happening in this month..
2nd november is my sister's birthday.. well, tu xde la significant sgt kan.. HAHA !
but ianya jadi tragedi sehari selepas tu bcoz 3rd November ialah hari dimana Arwah Along Eizwan kami tinggalkan kami selama-lamanya..
Semalam genap 12 tahun die pergi.. i was 9 years old back then.. total blurr on what just happened on that day.. ingat lagi mase tu Aisy kat umah makcik bile dpt taw berita tuh.. tu pon mak call suruh blk umah.. mase tu lepas semayang jumaat.... then bila blk rumah tu,, rumah mmg nampak gloomy giler n hujan masa tu mcm iringi tangisan mak.. bile sampai tu, semua org dok termenung n x bercakap ape.. bile aisy gi dapur n jumpa mak,, mak ckp along dah xde.. trus mak pegang n peluk aisy... die ckp, "lps ni jgn naik moto lagi ye"... aisy diam seribu bahasa je masa tu.. tp masa tu mak x nangis pon..cuma muka dia nampak sgt sedih.. masa tu,, cuba cari abah sbb nk tgk macam mane penerimaan die.. i couldn't find him.. masa tu semua org xnk bercakap ape2.. a 9 years old kid hanya mampu tgk je semua benda ni berlaku.. masa tu mak ngan ude bentang tilam and guna cadar putih kat ruang tamu sbb menunggu ketibaan jenazah.. so,, i felt asleep and bila bangun je pukol 2 pagi masa tu,, ramai org dah kat ruang tamu n nmpk sekujur tubuh terbaring atas tilam n sume org sibuk baca yassin masa tu.. makcik suruh basuh muka n pergi salam n cium along.. tp i was too scared and trembling teruk punya.. so, pergi kat mak n ckp xnk gi ruang tamu sbb takot.. mak suruh pergi smayang isya' dlu mase tuh bia x takut lepas tuh... then, bile da smayang tuh,, pakcik panggil n ckp kat aisy, along awak dah xde.. skrg, awak lah satu-satunye laki dlm keluarga..
air mata terus berjurai masa tu.. lepas tu,, trus aisy pergi ruang tamu n bawak yassin utk baca kat along. since masa tu still takot lagi,, aisy duduk kat penjuru n baca..
at that time baru nampak abah. die duduk tertunduk sebelah along sambil menangis. die ude ckp abah hampir rebah masa arwah sampai kat pintu rumah. lps tu die trus duduk sebelah along and x bergerak pergi makan or minum pon.. sampai mak pon sebak tgk abah mcm tu..tibe2 masa tu ude ajak duduk dekat kepala along bia rapat dgn along.. mase tu ade org dtg nk tgk arwah,, bila dia bukak kain tu, terus nampak muka along pucat.. masa tu tergamam n trus terimas semua kenangan dgn along yg kejap je dpt aisy rasakan..
masa lepas semayangkan along, sebelum nk kebumikan, kami semua cium dahi dan pipi along. aisy sgt2 takut masa tu.. then bile da sentuh dahi dia.. terus rasa sgt sebak dan sedih. air mata terus mengalir laju je n teresak-esak... sbb baru rasa yg along akan pergi selama-lamanya.. ini rupanya yg dikatakan kematian dan perpisahan antara dunia dan akhirat. bila turn mak, mak sgt tenang walaupon mata die bergenang. sambil tu mak sempat bisik kat telinga along supaya along tenang kat sana.. "mak redha along pergi'.. lepas mak bisik tu, aisy nampak air mata mengalir dari mata along dan mak lap air mata along yang mengalir tu..bile turn abah, abah menggigil dan x terdaya nak bgn lps cium along. sebak sangat2 bila tgk abah macam tu.. seperti hilang segala kekuatan die.. masa tu aisy x berhenti menangis sampai la selamat dikebumikan.. lepas jenazah bertolak ke kubur, barulah berjurai mata mak, sbb itulah kali terakhir akan berada dirumah ni..
seminggu lepas tu, rumah sunyi je sbb semua org x ckp bnyk.. aisy tnye mak masa tu,,kenapa mak x nangis masa along meninggal ? mak peluk aisy n ckp, mak xnk along nmpk mak sedih macam mak menyesal atas kematian die.. mak nak die pergi dengan tenang n mak redha utk dia menghadap Ilahi...
lepas daripada tu, bila kat skolah,, org tnye2,, aisy sedih sgt.. sampai x sanggup nk jwb bile ckgu tnya pasal along.. tahun 2000 was my silent year..
that was my first kematian dalam keluarga.. pesanan aisy,, sayangilah adik beradik kita.. hari ni mungkin dia ada,, besok mungkin dia hilang selama-lamanya..
sebab tu aisy cemburu dgn org yg ade abang or adik beradik laki.. sbb aisy sempat merasa sekejap je.. that is y i love my boy friends much sebab that's the only way aisy boley rasa that along is around and ada org yg care kat aisy, ade org nasihatkan aisy...
