New Chapter 2015

Assalamualaikum..

its been a while...

yup.. finally.. after 5 and half years, aku da tamatkan degree TESL and now i'm waiting to be posted to everywhere yg kpm nk hantar la kan.. bukan ape.. hari ni geng maktab start kelas.. aku rindu.. tu je.. kalau tak time-time macam ni, kitorg mesti tgh sembang sambil unpack barang, bahan membahan, sembang psl cuti punye cerita, sambil mkn kerepek ke, gosok baju, setel muka sikit kasi pleasant to be seen.. pastu da 2, 3 pagi tu bru tdo.. besok nye rabak dalam lecture ! haha.. hmm .. pada yg laen-laen, i'm definitely missing u guys.. normally kita akan lepak dinner sama2 for the first night kat ipba kan.. hmm.. tu lah.. rindu.. tu je.. hope u guys r doing fine.. jgn lupekan sudah le.. mintak sikit je space memory korg tu utk aku :D

#jumpstreetasia #keseni

#karnivalsastera #ipbm #janjiodah #keseni

#rooftop #blok4 #rumate

I MISS

 i heart them

can't imagine to start a new life without them

seriously

...

seriously

...

another semester to go guys.

then we off

to our own path..

kenang daku dalam doamu please...

jgn sombong lepas ni ey?

promise?

SaidaFarees 31Mei2014

Jempol N9

i'm done.

people keep saying

ko cemerlang! calon rentas! ape de hal?

to be truth,

it turn out to be some kind of demotivating.

y?

u should ask urself.

how do u feel when people keep saying things which u'r not..

i'm struggling here.

new school,

new environment,

new mate.

new problems.

believe me.

its hard.

i know myself, where i stand, n how would it be.

sesape yg ikhlas menyebut dan mendoakan nye, 

aminnn..

insyaAllah awak pon akan dpt jgk nnti.. 

saye pon doakan...

sesame lah kite ye...

tp kalau niat just nk membahan,

thanks~

u did it.. i'm demoralized.. :/

congrats..

s t ruggle . . .

hey.
manusia mana je yang x mengeluh kan..
baik sengaja, baik x sengaja....

yup.
its true....
“Laughter drains all stress for the whole day.”

but 
"people with the biggest laughter feels the deepest pain"

kot?

i'm having not-a-good-start-2014.... 
i'm feeling lost all da way.... 
maybe it bcoz of:

1- not really ready for practicum.. 
2- the feeling of people ditching me away..
3- mentally-blurred-action-research.
4- closest friends are away.
5- staying alone
6- alone
7- perfume habis
.
.
.
8- tak bersyukur....

well, insyaallah.. i'm preparing myself to be better... SK Bandar Sri Damansara 1... please.. i'm begging u.. be nice with me.. and my lovely 40 cutie monkeys of 3 Mawar... lets have fun together.. cikgu dlu masa sekola rendah, nama kelas cikgu Mawar gak taw! so, please jgn bagi malu nama Mawar :)

anyway, a big happy-married shout to Puan Naseha from PSV 2011 & Puan Amira Azha TESL 2011! Insyallah kekal till Jannah and produce cute babies.. 
and Happy E-day to Pika Hamzah ma best buddy in STS and Ayu Kahar ma kembar ! moga Allah mudahkan perjalanan korg membina masjid... so, who's next? haha.. good2.. sila hasilkan populasi yang berkualiti n comel2 ye kawan2 :)

i-Sad

Hey... 
I is sad..

Laptop aku kne curi.. 
Tempat kejadian : blok 1
Tarikh kejadian: 24 November 2013 [hari utk show koir mlm ke-2]
Hari: Ahad 
Masa kehilangan: 4.00a.m - 8.00a.m

Ye.. Time tu aku tgh tido.. Aku org last skali tido time tu [maybe] sbb bilik lain sume dah gelap.. Aku syak sorg je.. Tp xde bukti.. Aku syak sbb die sorg je yg tdo lambat.. Plus dgn cerita tambahan kak ina, tuduhan aku makin kuat.. 
Kat rumah tu ade budak german yg twinning UM.. Afiq.. Dan ade lg insan2 laen yg aku x sure nama die.. Batch bwh aku.. 

Kesian aku.. Xde sape amek kesah.. Aku taw mmg salah aku.. Sbb x kunci bilik time tdo.. But x sangka la plak kan.. Ade org luar nk masuk rumah tu subuh2 hari plak tu.. Bilik2 laen sume pon x kunci gak.. X tutup siap.. Leptop sepah2 cmtu je..xde plak kne sebat.. Kalau org lua, baek la die da sebat sume bnde skali gus alang2 masuk kan.. Plus, hostel laki kot.. Xkn org luar berani masuk la.. Laki kan timing tdo x tentu.. Da la ramai dlm rumah tu.. For sure org lua x brani masuk.. Silap2 kne tibai kalau kantoi.. Ni mmg kje org dlm.. For sure... Sbb aku rasa da kne target.. Sbb aku ade ckp aku nk blk isnin tu..  Tensyen.. Sbb org salahkan aku jugak walau bnde da jadi.. Bkn bg penyelesaian.. Tapi tekanan.. 

Kepada pencuri.. Kalau betul lah kaw student ipba, "aku doa kaw x grad!" 

Bunyi mcm kejam, tp tu la yg sewajarnya.. Sbb sbagai student jgk n bakal ckgu, ko patot taw mcm mne pentingnya laptop tu.. Seb baek hari tu da setel file MQA sampai sem 5.. Kalau aku yg kne audit? X menggagau.. Tp syg. Semua report, gambar, lesson plan, worksheet, assignment, lagu, video, surat2.. Haiih.. Lebur camtu je la.. Aku x kesah kaw nk amek laptop tu sbb aku bley beli baru.. Just bg blk je Drive D aku je..  Ingt berapa GB dah aku abez nk donlod lagU2 n mv2 tu? Now nk kne kumpul from scratch! 

Paling aku terkilan, aku bru je transfer all pictures since the first day aku beli fon ni.. And aku da delete dlm fon ni sbb memory full.. 16gb je.. What do u expect kan.. Kenangan sume tu.. Mane nk beli? Hopefully ade la kat icloud.. Arghhh stress!!

Sem dpn nk  prac.. Bnyk duit nk pakai.. Maybe aku beli laptop yg second hand je kot.. Mne nk cekau ntah.. S

A Tenor

I am one of the members for Koir Kebangsaan Malaysia.

I sing Tenor line.

I am nervous.

Our concert will be on the next weekend..

It will be at MaTiC

actually, i really hope that any of my family members could come and watch me performing.

this is something special for me and i want them to see.

another side of mine.

but then, my dream will never come true.

i know.

I am sad.

coz the date was being postponed..

the concert supposed to take place on 21 October 2013.

but,

all my friends now are on their holidays.

i was planning to bring along my friends to this concert.

coz i want them to see me performing.

represent my family.

but now, 

all of them are now dancing happily in their hometown.

nevermind.

maybe xde rezeki diorg nk tgk.

come on eizhar.

u must strive even no one is around.

yes.

i have started my semester break.

bye2 semester 6.

u have given me a lot.

memories

HATRED

u strike me hard.

tq

hey sem 7.

a new chapter will begin.

Tandus

Kebiasaannye aku sedar..
Tapi kekadang lupe tentang kenyataan sebenar..
Bile sekali ditampar..
Barulah terdampar..

Dunie ni mudah kan..
Sekelip mate pon boleh berubah..

Bise tamparan tu, sekejap je..
Gosok2 sikit.. Hilanglah bise..
Macam tak pernah jadi ape ape..

Nah.
Hidup sekarang dah dewase..
Mental terok bekerje..
Fizikal pulak hanye mendengar kate..

Tapi takpe..
Aku nampak jalannye..
Berani tak berani je nak cube.. 

Aku takot..
Sekali aku kelip..
Bende masih ade.. 
Sekali lagi kelip..
Lenyap semuanye..

Sebab itu saje jalannye..

Suke atau tidak..

Aku yang kena pilih..

Eizwan Bin Idris

Along...

u got Abah's face..

that hidung is the signature.. hehe

i miss u along..

wish u were here..

take charge of abah's place..

...

kenapa along pergi dulu?

kalau along ada sekarang mesti family kite x jadi mcm ni..

...

org x mampu long..

org x kuat..

Al-Fatihah...

Eizwan Bin Norhakimah

11 April 1980 - 3 November 2000

k a t a

Old Town White Coffee Bangsar South

word is just a word.. but it has meaning.. 

it changes our life.. like it or not... 

it might not be meaningful to u..

but it might be for another..

we praise

we lie

we sweet

we goodbye

it's a silent weapon that

sting u like a bee

bite u like a mosquito

cut u like a razor

and

hit u like wrecking ball

careful with ur words.

it might change ones life.

just...

be careful.

what?

what happen?

where da heck did all the pictures gone? 

the link is broken?

dem..

i thought it'll be there forever...

y la blogspot? all the links on the pictures on my previous post have broken. 

so sad

:(

IR O NY

This is 

a 

happy face

but somehow there are few more layers on that face that have not been exposed. since abah sakit. Mak mmg 100% on Abah. sometimes mak ada tanya khabar. tiap kali call mak, nk luahkan something... tp x jadi luah sbb terkenangkan cukuplah ape yg mak tgh hadapi.. bila mak tanya

mak: "mcm mne practicum?" 

me: "alhamdulillah.. budak2 ok,, cikgu pon best...xde la kne buli sgt"

mak: "sehat x?"

me: "sehat.. ok je.. batuk sikit2 je.. biasa lah.. cuaca x menentu..."

mak: "ha... jaga kesihatan tu.. minum air masak bnyk2...balik minggu ni?"

me: "hurm.. ingt nk blk.. tp tu lah.. ade skolah ganti..."

mak: "ouh.. ha, xpelah.. nnti ko abez practicum, balik la.."

me: "mesti.. hehe.. abah cmne?"

mak: "abah ko, td batuk2........(bla bla bla). ....................................................... ........................................................................................................................................................................................................................

me: "ouh... ha,, tu lah,, nnti org blk...mak tu pon,, jaga diri leklok,,mak sakit kang, susah pulak..kem slm kat yang laen"

mak: "ha.. ye lah.."

padahal sebenarnye nk luahkan mcm ni:

mak: "mcm mne practicum?" 

me: "penat mak... asyik ngantok je kat skola.. tdo lambat buat kerja tu,,ini,,, pastu ade sorg cikgu kat skola ni,, haih... suke no suroh org mcm2.."

mak: "sehat x?"

me: "org demam la mak.. ni ha,, batuk, selsema bagai... sakit tekak gak nih... da dekat 2 mggu x ilang2.. kalau org kat umah, bley gak gi klinik ngan mak... org x suke nk gi klinik kat sini.. sbb sorg2.. malas.. at least kat umah, mak teman.. lagi satu, org ade benjol kat bwh lutut ni da 2 minggu x ilang sbb berlaga ngan member.. ingatkan biasa je,, tp x surut2.. pastu ni hah, ankle, bru je terpeleot tadi mase tournament volleyball.. dlu kne yg kanan,, now yg kiri... haish..pastu ni event kat maktab lps ni ......................bla bla bla....................................................................................................."

mak: *bebelan risau

sbb tu lah,, lately ni, saya bnyk diam.. kdg tu bkn xnk share ngan member2.. member2 pon ade bnyk problem nk tanggung.. tp skali skala share, rasa lepas la ckt kan... 

insyaallah, i'll be more independent.. bkn ape,, kadang2 tu saja nk manja2 ngan mak,, cite itu cite ini.... mmg saya anak manja,, kalau bkn anak yang nk bermanja ngan mak,, sape lg kan.... 

#notakaki: tahniah Vol4t.. we got 2nd place this time! insyaallah next time akan lg better...

b e . n i c e

sad rite?

when all ur hard-works are being

queried

nvm. i still have friends

who believe in me.

might be a joke

but its none for me.

:)

hey.. I Miss You.

hey mom..

i miss you..

really really much..

Insyaallah i'll make u proud one day..

i know ur priority is abah now..

u r the iron lady mak..

hey sis!

I miss u too..

we r the only bachelor and bachelorette  in Noris family.

thanx for being there when i need u the most.

Insyaallah, u'll find ur Hero one day..

for the time being.. let me be urs.. :)

please don't leave me like the others did when once the wedding ring is placed.

I love u both.

thanx for being there through my ups and downs.

i know.

our family is not like the others.

when something is not right

i'll keep it to myself.

both of u

had enough of burden to be carried.

and i,

i'll try to live to the fullest.

despite all the sorrow that sometimes hit me hard.

i'll be strong.

i sleep.

i sing.

i eat.

it helps me a lot.

speedy recovery.

one thing i need you to know.

i love you forever.

Eid Mubarak 2013

salam Eid Mubarrak

Maaf dipinta andai 

mulut ini sentiasa 

termuntah kata celaan

yang bisa mengguris hati teman

tercuit kedua belah tangan

yang kurangnya perhatian

muka ini kerap

tercebik wajah tomahan

yang sering menjengkelkan 

gigi ini senantiasa

terkunyah segala rezeki

yang terhidang di depan mata

mata yang sering leka

tentang keperibadian

ehwal manusia

kaki yang sering alpa

ketika terkuis walau

sekelumit cebisan kulit taulan

serta

hati yang sering meronta

mengherdik diri

tatkala jiwa ini berantakan

akibat perihal yang kecil mahupun besar

saya hanya insan biasa yang sering melakukan kesilapan

andai kata ini Syawal terakhir...

maka ini lah Syawal yang paling bermakna buat saya..

Khas utk: Abah, Mak, Kakak2, Rakan2 karib, Sahabat Handai yang mengenali insan bernama

Eizhar Bin Idris

#notakaki: Saya bangga dengan vocab BM saya :)

Teacher Much?

cikgu yg expressive

hey.
its been a while kan..
tgk gambo tu taw2 je la kan.. tgh practical skrg ni.. phase 2... this time around, ada language art.. padahal previous prac pon buat language art jgk tapi x kne assess seperately..

smlm kne observe.. language art dgn Kak Saidah... bersyukur rasenye dpt 3 Tekun tu.. walaupon dlm kelas tu dari bijak-kurang cerdik tu pelbagai, tp bile language art, semua tewas di tgn ckgu yang expressive nih.. hehe.. alhamdulillah... Kak Saidah kata, 

"u have the vibe of and English teacher"

"I like ur accent and how you speak"

"i can see the pupils here love u much"

mungkin sume tu jadi mcm tu sbb bile start je mengajo, dlm otak ni x brain pon tgh kne observe.. totally abaikan si-penentu-masa-depan yg kat belakang tu.. niat mmg nk bagi budak paham je.. dlm bnyk-bnyk, mmg org kata WHILE stage is harder than the preparation n reflection.. peluh-peluh nk kasi bdk paham walau satu perkataan je pon.. lecak bak ang..

tadi kne observe lagi...
kali ni dgn pensyarah...
dgn mdm Ooi.. gembira sbb segalanye brjalan lancar.. tapi cuak.. sbb kne maintain.. so far,, masih di atas ladasan yang betul.. alhamdulillah.. mungkin berkat mendidik masa bulan puasa kot...


btw,, besok last day,, then cuti !! nk balik segamat weyh !! hehehe :D

haih....

sometimes... i just don't understand... this boy was in a class and couldn't pick up a call.. then he text back the other party by asking what is wrong... she said 'nothing' where the boy knew that something is not right... then he called back.. and she didn't pick up... then he send a text with the word 'haih' there...after a few hours, she called back for just about 5 seconds.. that boy about to pick up and she hung up.. see that circled word? she interpret is differently... i kinda lost here.. did u girls just simply jump into conclusion ? what's wrong with that word? mmm...  i think i need to be more careful in my choice of words after this...

1, 2, 3 POSE!

Gud Luck Mate!

3 more semester to go !

TESL C!

hey Semester 6!

feeling educated

all hail semester 6 ! another 3 more papers for this semester.. luckily there is no EDU.. :) but we have persatuan instead.. blergh~all the best for another 2 month practicum.. pray hard people.. if one month practical, they torched us for replacement class until 4pm.. imagine the replacement for another 2 month practical.. *sigh... gud luck also for the upcoming examination result in few days time... lastly,, i miss u guys. ceh~

another 3 more semester to go and i'm off to Alam Pekerjaan....

Second Chance

i''m currently reading a novel called "KELABU" to fill my semester break.. yeah.. 3 weeks without seeing any IPBA's friends.. anyway.. in that novel, i've come across these words.. 

second chance

do you believe in second chance ? i do believe in second chance.. i dunno.. yeah, people make mistakes.. its up to us whether to forgive or not.. most people choose to forgive but not to forget. i'm one of it.. it all depends on the situation and that particular person.. if someone who's very close to me, i somehow will give him/her the second chance for the sake of friendship.. as far as what i've gone through, its hard to built a concrete friendship.. thus, it goes the same to break it... refer to the saying up there.. i still remember what my friend said.. if we literally hate that somebody, just think about what he/she have done best for us.. coz we don't even know if one day, there will be a turn over.. hate is a strong word tho.. 

well, back to the second chance thing, in that novel, the hero is a very handsome man who loves photography, anak dato' and turn to be a player after his heart was broken into pieces.. the hero refused to give his ex a second chance.. even the ex has change to a better person.. well, as human, he still have that sekelumit feeling towards his ex.. it just that the anger,pride and ego which prevent him from accepting the second chance..

at first i was about to agree coz yeah.. dah kne buang kan.. watpe nk terhegeh-hegeh blk kan? i believe that we don't live by the pass kan.. reflection is a must but moving on is supposed to be the forte rite.. same goes when we we are driving.. which one is easy ? making a u-turn or just take the simple turn? 

again. come to think of it, everyone makes mistakes.. most of the time we decided to live with the mistakes. sometimes, we're given a room to turn back and correct what was wrong. there is no shame in turning back especially when living in regret and guilt is too hurtful. thus, giving others the second chance is like a golden moment of one's life.. for example, in a singing competition, u r being kicked out during the first round bcoz u cracked ur voice while singin', then, somebody who is still in da competition pulling back and the producer offered u to be in da competition again.. i'm sure u r going to better than the first round right? u won't spoiled the second chance rite? 

if the first one went wrong, obviously there's room for improvement. that is the concept of second chance. what i think? forgive is a must.. forget is a choice... 

Happy 100th Post !

Malacca 2012

Happy 100th Post AisyEizhar!

keep on writing

as this will be a memory lane for you 

in da future.

*just incase u suffer from memory lost.